To My Best Friend


To My Best Friend


Letters Unsent

My Dear BFF,

It seems this letter will never reach you. But then I am sure it will find its way to you someday.

Being friends is the first step towards any relationship. I am sure we could have converted that first attraction into something more meaningful than what it finally became. We had the required ingredients for the perfect relationship. We knew what the other was thinking, feeling and hiding. Nothing was a secret between us. We proved to be the best that could happen to each other. We admired, respected and loved each other with all dedication and no compulsion. We were close enough to be termed as soul mates. Then why? Then why did we have to part ways?

What changed? The people, as in you and me? The circumstances, as in the distances between us?  For people who care for each other, there is no room for ego. There is no room for neglect or hurt. There is only pure and total understanding. Where did we go wrong? What did I miss? I know I will never know and I have come to terms with it.

You are and always will be my best friend. No matter where you are, with whom you are, under what circumstances you are, you will always find me just a heart beat away. That’s what friendship means to me. Not the proximity in body, but in soul. I am here for you whenever you need me. If I only knew why I had to lose that place in your life. Why you chose to neglect and hurt me? Why the hurt refuses to go and why the pain refuses to subside.

I am not willing to change who I am and what I am to please you. The idea of friendship is to be accepted as is. Change I will for the people who need a modified version of me. For you, I want to be what I really am. If that changes, then there is no holding ground for this friendship. I guess it is best to let our friendship die a slow death then.

Hopefully, our paths will never cross again. Even if we do meet, it will be like strangers. Which is a reality because I don’t know you anymore. I don’t want a changed version of you either. I am sure I will never get my best friend back again. And I am ready to accept this now.

Out of sight, out of mind, but not out of soul. Yet!

Let’s not meet even in dreams I say,
If you do come, it better be to stay!

The hole in my heart stays ripped and dripping in memory of you…. My friend… My best friend… Forever???

Until time heals, still yours,

Written for Write Tribe’s Letters Unsent .


15 thoughts on “To My Best Friend

  1. I understand the pain of drifting away from someone so close. It can be really distressing to the extent that one sometimes feel out of life and breath-choked. I have such a special someone I drifted away from and I know there’s no turning back now.

    I hope the hole in your heart is filled by something/someone even more precious and that the hurt fades away. God bless!


  2. Drifting is natural as nothing is constant. But its difficult to accept with intense relationships. Loved your lines,Out of sight, out of mind, but not out of soul. Yet! How true. Even if one accepts the drift and becomes numb to it, the feelings and memoires never fade.


    • Yes, Kalpana, they don’t fade. I guess it takes a while for the numb feeling to set in. Anger, hurt, retaliation, disgust, self pity and then numbness. Not necessarily in that order for some.


  3. Second attempt to leave a comment. Its sad that this happened because as they say best of friends make worst of enemies. If I can add further I would say they also make strangest of strangers. I hope you people get together and sort things but I know its not going to be a great idea if the issues ran deep..



    • Thank you Richa. Pixie also said she couldn’t comment here yesterday, I have no idea why. 😦

      So true about the enemies and strangers. I only I wish I knew what I did wrong. How can people change like this?


  4. Jyothi,
    I never read posts, till I have posted my own as that might influence my thought.. I am glad I changed the topic of my letter before starting to write one cuz U my friend, have penned my life here. I didnt know this was possible. I am serious. I exactly know what U are talking about.. 🙂


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